looks like this will be m last "broadcast" from apt. 609 up in Waterloo Towers. funny how it doesn't seem like that long ago that i was leaving Vancouver on a jet plane headed for TO...
...and a lot's happened since then.
almost 4 months have gone by, yet i still recall the night i arrived like it was just yesterday: on a warm dark night, w/ weary mind & body i dragged all my belongings into the lobby where i sat & waited for JT to come home w/ the keys so i could get into the apartment. waited there for over an hour i think, even moved all my bags upstairs in front of the apartment door, just cuz i got bored. then i had to go & mark my territory in the bushes by the building entrance (fitting i think, since it was my final term).
the term was great. the best of all my 5 terms here @ UW. JT, Cassandra, u guys are awesome housemates. sorry if i scared u sometimes w/ my enthusiasm for cooking/eating/food, but i'm glad i was able to live w/ u guys in such a clean place that was so CLOSE to the school. thx to the Westcourt crew for letting me borrow (crash and lose) a bike. =P and to everyone else, i guess i never mentioned it the "other" time, but i'll make up for it here: thanks to everyone i've met out here these past few years, u guys are all awesome. you all get the "Nip of Approval": (.)
whether it was playing sports (vball/tennis/swimming), going through times of stress (Lifesong/exams), or just having a good time (sharing/chilling/EATing), i really do feel blessed to have been able to share life w/ u guys & i hope everyone continues making the most of theirs, wherever they are. i'll definitely miss the free sauna/pool/weightroom/tennis too...felt like a free membership to a health club (a pretty ghetto one, but still it was free!). having been brought here against my will, and experienced things i would have never sought after on my own, Waterloo has definitely earned a special place in my heart. still one thing bothers me though: i'll still never understand how UW ppl can spend 12+ hours studying. i can't get over that. all it takes is 2 hours of straight reading to send me on my way home w/ a dizzy head and/or rumbling stomache. speaking of food btw...
the Last Supper:
so where do i go from here? no clue. i've got some temp work for Dec. 29th & 30th already, & a few other gigs will probably come my way in the near future @ BCIT, but all that really doesn't mean much. sure i've planned a few things here n there; places i'd like to go, things i'd like to do...but if i've learned anything over the past 3 years it's not to think of my own plans as if they were set in stone. because they aren't. they usually never are. in fact, they're more like the dots that are scattered all over the page in those "connect-the-dots" puzzles. u know, the ones where u start at dot #1, then look for #2, then #3 etc...until you finally draw some sort of picture.
yeah it's kinda like that, except on my page the dots don't have numbers...and maybe not every single dot that i put on the page will be used to create that final picture. some dots seem more essential than others right now, but who knows whether they'll be connected to the rest, and other dots that seem insignificant may hold greater value than i could ever imagine. those dotsmay even appear and disappear at random sometimes, and possibly (just maybe) there are a few dots that will be shared with someone else as well. certain point(s) in my life of "dots" that will connect to the outline of someone else's. maybe. all i know for sure is that i've gotta let go of the pen & stop trying so hard to connect them my way. let it go, and trust (and pray) that He'll reveal to me the design of my life that He's intended, in His time. walking home from school tonight @ 0100 after a final "hardcore" (2.5hr) study session @ the SLC i looked up @ the sky trying to find the moon, and i couldn't. guess it was covered by clouds or something, but it didn't matter - i knew it was there. just like the future that i may not be able to see clearly @ times, someone wiser than me controls it, and knowing that puts me good hands.
there is one particular dot that i can see out there in the future from where i am today...& it looks like the lil bugger has something to do w/ the east coast, or something like that. huh...so perhaps the east coast hasn't seen the last of the Nipple after all. but for now, i'm not even gonna worry about when/if this dot gets a line drawn through it or not. because all i know is that i'm heading home...
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uy...too much to say, too little time/brainpower. i have a final in 6.5 hours for cryin' out loud! alright. enough of this sappy stuff. new adventures await! (look out u lazy seefutjai...i'm coming home to take u for a walk!)
stay tuned...